In Exodus, we read about how the Lord led the Israelites by a pillar of cloud by day and pillar of fire by night. Even for me serving in BSF for the past 7 years, each study as we recommit our term of service, our teaching leader would tell us to pray about it, and she would say that if our cloud has not moved, then it would mean we are to continue serving. I always asked myself how do I know whether my cloud has moved. This year I finally understood what that means and I would like to testify to bring glory to our sovereign and faithful God.
I have been working in a cyber security company for 13.5 years. However, at the start of the Holy Week last year, we received a shocking announcement that our Headquarters had decided to sell the Malaysian operation. It was really a shock to all of us that morning and the next thing we knew was that we were all given buyback period of 6, 9 or 12 months depending on the team. It was a day that everyone felt down, confused and uncertain. Personally, I was also shocked to hear the news and my mind started asking God what this means. Is He closing this corporate door and telling me it’s time to go into ministry as that was the calling I heard 9 years ago?
The next day, everyone had our one-to-one session with HR and our manager. Everyone in my team had their session first before mine and each of them came out sharing what was shared in their session. Everyone was feeling nervous on what’s next. Then came my turn in the evening, and to my surprise, they did not start the conversation about my buyback period but instead I was offered an opportunity to continue working in Headquarters which is in Finland. They even informed me that this offer is exclusively for me alone and not extended to anyone else in the Malaysian operation. When I heard that, I was even more shocked but at the same time feeling blessed and thankful. However, in my mind I was again asking God what now. I wrestled with God as I asked the Lord to guide me as to where He wants me to be before I give my decision to them.
It was truly not an easy journey, and I struggled last Easter, but the Lord has truly been faithful and good. He has been revealing Himself to me in my devotion time, through songs, people, and each time when I seek a confirmation, He made it happen. Finally, I found peace to relocate to Finland after all the confirmations that He has showed me even though it was not easy to make this decision. I told God that I want to keep trusting and be obedient to Him even though I cannot see what is ahead of me. I chose to hold on to the promises in Jeremiah 29:11 which says “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”.
Just as the Israelites moved when the cloud moves, my cloud too has moved, and I want to praise God for His sovereignty and faithfulness in leading me through this storm. Even though this decision would mean that I would need to leave behind family, friends and the various ministries that I am serving in KL Wesley, I know that the Lord will provide as it is His work and not mine. All glory to God for His immeasurable love for me!
